Stress, depression and suicidal thoughts. 2 have been here for ages, but a 3rd just came around. With my badly manage of time and thinking I could do and help everything/everyone it have resulted in stress. Take that onto my 2 shit holes already and it's a really bad and unhealthy combo. I don't wanna stay here and take a admin spot, when all I do is lurk and minimal actual staffing duties. I don't hope this is a good bye. I'm working to get out of this mess and I would love to come back and staffing again, but it doesn't look like it will be over soon. @Teroxa Thanks for the oppurtunity, memories and the fun laughs we had... I will never forget and always cherish this. @Voca You finally apply and my irl hit the fan.... I'm so happy to see you in cyan and help out^^ @Lordyhgm Fun and giggles never left. From the first time I played with you and until today, I can't think of a single ocassion where it haven't been fun or pleasant. @Pacifist Papa Paci the one and only. My role model and #1 person I will look up to forever. I learned so much from you, not only things about staffing, but things that I could use in real life aswell. Love you and take care. @Panda With a Gun Thanks for the community nights, I think my endless ocassionally endless laughs is enough to explain how much I enjoyed them. @Espurr You will go places, stay true to yourself and do your best <3 @Anna To this day, I still don't know if you remember me or not, but I do remember you. You were the first staff member I ever encountered on thses servers and thanks to you I remembered the server, when I got back into gmod. My brain is overheated now and I need to stop thinking, so sorry if I missed anyone... Stay true to yourselves and work hard for your goals. - Fear
Don't be afraid of coming back (Get it cause fear, afraid?) Seriously though, personal health should be priority so deal with that first. Don't burn yourself out even more with stress staffing brings
Yo man, if ya ever need anyone to talk to, feel free to shoot me a dm. Ya a great guy and I hope you don't feel like your experience here has been negative. You've been a very influential person here at SGM and you've definitely made a significant impact. I can't think of anyone friendlier to be around when staffing, you always made the servers a fun time for those who were on them. I can only wish you good luck for the future. P.s. Stop Eating all the Scout treats. They ain't healthy
Hey man, Stay awesome. Stress happens to the most of us staff members but you have to find your personal way to cope with this. Playing other games is and was my way. Suicidal thoughts is what we all have once. I hope like the 99% of us you get over it and man up. Not only for yourself but also the people around you and who look up to you.
Spoiler: me rn In all seriousness though, Thank you for being a great admin. Don't be a stranger and if you need anything my DMs are always open, no matter the timezone.
I always found that this shit is always the hardest to deal with when you suppress it. I've never been suicidal, my ego is too damn big, but I have dealt with the other two on loads of occasions. The thing about depression is that it will try to steer you from things you enjoy doing. That is how it isolates you and keeps you from being happy. You can't allow those feelings to take control of you, you have to fight back against them. I am not saying force happiness because happiness is bullshit. It is so fleeting and unrealistic that you will never be satisfied. I choose to seek peace. Peace with whatever I have that is bothering me. In some way I just seek resolution to my problems, and I work my hardest to get to a point of being at peace. With peace will come happiness, but only for a short while. Depression can't really get to you if you have the willpower to overcome it, and if you don't you owe it to yourself to find someone who can help you. Don't be a little bitch about it either, if you need help you seek it and you seek it for me and all the other people who genuinely care about you. Stress on the other hand can be managed, but never completely mitigated. I'm sorry, but we live in a stressful world and you can't block out all the stress. You can, however, manage how you respond to stress. Now I actually took a class on stress management and I honestly don't remember a fucking thing about it. It was an easy A course, I didn't really give it much thought, but I guess try yoga or some breathing techniques. Just remember that stress is only ever temporary, and it is a barrier to success. In times of high stress I just remind myself that it could be a whole helluva lot worse and that whatever pain I am feeling is temporary, and that I should enjoy the feeling while it lasts. I remember that to seek peace is to seek acceptance of your situation. Recognize that you are here now. Whatever dumb thing you did to put yourself here, or even if you didn't do nothing, it doesn't matter. You are here, this is the situation you have to deal with, just relax and deal with it to the best of your ability and let whatever cosmic entity has planned this shit out in advance do the rest. It will suck for awhile but you will get over it. That's my advice. On a more personal note I've been here for both your terms as staff and I had the pleasure to see you up in the grand stands of administrator. Granted you were quite busy most of the time, I still enjoyed the conversations and things that you did do for this community. Nobody can take your achievements away from you, and I respect your decision to step down to focus on your mental health. I'm sure that if you get this all settled and wish to come back there would be a spot for you, I know I sure as hell would consider you. Tata for now you big dumb deer.
Fear, I hope wherever you decide to take yourself to in the future welcomes you with open arms, take care of yourself and know we are going to miss you. Good luck in life, and good luck with how you deal with your emotions. Love ya man
Find a way to escape your head. Thoughts can get pretty loud sometimes, but if you find a way to say "sush" to those thoughts, and find some peace and quiet, you'll do a lot better. You've made a lot of friends here. Give any of them a shout, remember that you're never going to burden any of them, ever. Friends help each other out, it's kind of the point... Take care of yourself.
I've been there a couple of times too. I'm always a msg away if needed U better come back so I can rdm you Dont be a stranger!! <3
I remember you went by a different name back then and I think we've talked about it in the past. Though my memory is pretty shit now days and I don't remember specifics, I'm glad I made a lasting enough impression on you to make you come back here. I've dealt with all 3 of your current struggles numerous times over the last 15 odd years all to varying degrees of intensity and I still do to this day. It's hard and it sucks and it'll try to hold you back. Don't push away those near and dear to you because they'll be the ones that keep you grounded and level even when you feel like you're falling deeper and deeper. If you ever need someone to talk to, someone to vent to, or just someone to help you through anything I'm always down for a chat. Add me on discord Anna#0666 and feel free to msg me there (i hardly get on steam now days) Take care of yourself okay?
Hey man I totally get what you’re feeling. I’ve had those thoughts before and I still do sometimes but not as much. You were a very nice guy when we played in game and you’ve done quite a lot for people. Take care and hope you get better soon.
Fear, you are an amazing guy my friend. Youve shown incredible dedication to both the staff team and this community in a whole. I hope that you can get the help that you may need and that you can walk out of this laughing about it one day as a memory. I will miss seeing you man, i hope you come back to check in every now and again. Take care, my friend.
i dunno but i think i don't care for these kinds of things probably cuz i don't even know any of these guys that leave
