As my father's father said to him, and his father's father said to him.. I will say to you Since November 2015, Serious Gmod has been a home, a family, and an escape. This community has pushed me out of my shell and gotten me through a lot of previous traumas. SGM became more to me than just a server when I met a few of you IRL and then formed strong in person relationships with some of you. At age 15, joining SGM, I was severely depressed over issues I could never have controlled.. I had played for a few months when Kyogre took interest in me, and guided me through the process of becoming staff and overtime became a good friend. I was picked up on #teamshadow and surfed from team to team throughout my 5 tenures. I was staff the day 2/3 of the team left in 2017, losing everyone on my team including my admin. As much as SGM saw me at my worst, I saw it at it's worst too.. And I think that's why I feel so connected to those of you I still keep in touch with. Its weird to have a connection like that to a Garry's mod community but some of you could fit in that same shoe. At Age 20, I have finally found closure from the past, even from those in the SGM community that I had previously held anger against so passionately. I have found who I am and who I want to be unlike the kid I was 5 years ago. STORY TIME: I had my life threatened by my ex girlfriend's current boyfriend when we were still dating.. He said he was coming to my house/was gonna destroy my car/etc.. As this all was taking place, I was at my doctors office. I had an anxiety attack that led to me being afraid to go home (dude who threatened me was schizophrenia and bipolar). Due to this, I admitted myself into the hospital and was dragged off to a psych-ward. In this ward, they abused us. PSYCHOLOGICALLY They would aimlessly give medicine and changing doses regularly without consent or even telling the patients. The day I got out, I decided to try acid for my first time.. the mixture of acid with the random drug concoction that was still in my system, caused a DARK trip, leading me to go barefoot and cross the interstate Don't do drugs kids I barely remember any of my interstate experience beside my step into the left lane when a car whizzed past me. Once I exited, I was apprehended by police (Who didn't even know I was tripping or on the expressway to begin with), remained uncuffed.. and was picked up by my mom. As I reached home, I was greeted by my police officer uncle, who then drove me to a second hospital. I experienced slight PTSD from the traumas invoked by the previous hospital, But was soon clamed by the slogan of the hospital I was staying at my 2nd admission (SLOGAN: A hospital for people that hate hospitals) In this hospital, I remained on lockdown due to pending Covid results for the 1st 7 days of my 8 day stay. In these 8 days, I learned I only had myself to turn to.. regardless of all the friends or family I had.. I had no phone to contact them. I thought all day and all night, about what I was doing wrong to have my life go down the path It was going down, and eventually figured out what my issue was. I was excessively holding onto the past, when I should've been letting it go. From the trust broken by my ex of 2 years (who was originally my bestfriend) when she cheated with my bestfriend to the reason my father left his family in a foreclosing house without fear of them becoming homeless. The person I was in July 2020, Is barely the person I am today as I am 4 months into my new job (already looking at an increase to supervisor), finally moved out my Mom's house, and am happy to be focusing on myself. I wont tag a lot of people, and some that I tag will never see my mention.. But its purely nostalgia and me more so saying goodbye to SGM for one last time. Kyogre, Shadow, Sinz: At a time I was struggling to fit into my high school (Only having 30 people from my JR high's graduating class) The 3 of you made me feel welcome when I felt welcome nowhere, I thank all 3 of you. Shadow, Steven Mason, Wompzilla, Forcie, @Lord Momo All of you already long gone (except Logan) but.. I appreciate all of you giving me a shot at Mod. Logan, You especially are to thank as you gave me the chance to staff SGM again after my ban.. I half expected my application to sit for a long while but am thankful that you bestowed your trust onto me. Im sure you'll see the notification for this before you see the PM to you. Coming back to SGM after so long, I half expected something different than what I returned to.. I don't exactly feel like its a right fit for me anymore and is more so me trying to hold onto a portion of my past when I've done pretty good letting the rest go. I feel its only right for me to step down. @Elvis You're a real one, And Im happy as hell I was able to reconnect with you (We gotta play some games in the future) PM me for my snap bb @j3kawesome @RyanHighman @Jabba the Slut @Rico @Pierogi I talked to some of you more than others, but none the less, You guys made the time as staff more enjoyable.. Each time on the servers or in the discord I had a decent amount of fun. J3k, I appreciate you checking up on me throughout the process of getting my car together and everything else.. Lets run the tanks through Chicago. The list of mentions could go on, for miles, but I don't think anyone wants that (especially not my fingers) I love you all, and If any of you want my contacts.. feel free to shoot me a message.