Fuck mental illness

Discussion in 'Farewells' started by Bubonic, Sep 27, 2018.

  1. Bubonic

    Bubonic Burning heretics since M31 VIP

    I am resigning from my staff position today because I have allowed my mental illness to spiral out of control unchecked. I have suffered from major depression and generalized anxiety disorder as well as a personality disorder all of my life. For a long time I carefully managed it, not allowing it to bring me down and be a disability but at some point in the last 4 years I stopped doing that. Today I am a complete wreck. My depression is at its worst and I can't even go outside without being wracked with anxiety. I am seeing a few specialists in early October and hope that they will be able to put me on the path to recovery because to put it simply: I cannot handle the pressure of my life anymore.

    I have to find some way to bring down the pressure and that brings me here today. Until I can take care of myself I cannot give you guys the time, love, and energy that it takes to be an effective moderator. Maybe, very hopefully, down the road I will be strong enough to be here for you guys as staff but until then this is goodbye.

    I love each and every one of you.
     
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  2. Pacifist

    Pacifist Cynically Insane VIP Bronze

    Get well buddy. :)
     
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  3. Shadow™

    Shadow™ What it do Shortyyyy™ VIP

    Hope you get better
     
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  4. MemeDaddy

    MemeDaddy VIP

    GL
     
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  5. MrMunkay514™

    MrMunkay514™ better than ryan (especially at payday) VIP

    hope you get well buddy, prayers inbound .
     
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  6. ryan

    ryan yeet VIP

    Hope you get better
     
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  7. Husky

    Husky Euthanasia VIP Silver

    I can't remember if I ever actually told you this but as I was transitioning into an administrator unknowingly at the time and @Opalium was supervising the team, I actually told him that you would be an outstanding pickup at the time. He told me afterwards that if I thought you were so good that I should pick you up myself. About 3 days later I did exactly that, and to this day I do not regret my decision of making you my first. You are and always will have a special place in my heart by being the first coming into a new part of the staff tenure and you made it extremely easy for me.

    You did fantastic, Bubonic. You struggled throughout your tenure to grow and to continue journeying through this community on what is less than ideal of a road. Even after everything you and I have been through.

    You did your best pal, and that's all that I ever asked for when you were under me. I'm proud of you.

    Love you man. Get well soon.
     
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  8. LBPotatoes

    LBPotatoes That’s so crunchy VIP

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    It was a fun ride Bubonic. After all you’ve been through, I honestly hope you can get through it. You’re a good person. I’ll miss you dude.
     
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  9. Jabba the Slut

    Jabba the Slut That's Kinky! Lead Admin VIP Silver

    You were my top pick for the open admin slot. You were a great moderator. I wish you the very best, and I hope you get the help you need.
     
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  10. Anonymous1

    Anonymous1 do you know how it feel to feel alone VIP Bronze

    Love ya man, you can always talk to me if you need it. We are here for you
     
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  11. Saturnity

    Saturnity SGMs Personal Planet VIP

    Love you BB <3 Can always talk to me too
     
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  12. Ruki

    Ruki 目の前で明日が死んでる VIP

    take care my dude
     
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  13. Solid Anunoby

    Solid Anunoby VIP Silver

    Our brains are the strongest but most fragile fucking things. Take care, please.
     
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  14. Ted

    Ted The knight in white armor! Silver

    Hey man take care. The staff team is in good hands
     
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  15. Mellow

    Mellow Taking it easy VIP

    I've never really spoken to you personally before outside the occasional staff chit-chat, but I hope everything goes well and you'll be able to return one day, stronger than before. Until then, take care and good luck!
     
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  16. A Slightly Ferocious Cat

    A Slightly Ferocious Cat i guess you could say i like cats VIP

    ily get well soon :cat:
     
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  17. Agent Knockout

    Agent Knockout Шуми Марица, окърваена! Плаче вдовица, ранена! VIP

    Goodbye, Bubonic. You were a good teacher and we always discussed everything like gentlemen. See you sometime in the future.
     
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  18. pekka26

    pekka26 god im so smart VIP

    Hey Bubonic, I hope you get well soon.
    Thanks for the training sessions :)
    Take care
     
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  19. Aquast

    Aquast lordy was here :barefoot: VIP Bronze

    GWS man, u the real man
     
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  20. Bruno

    Bruno In time all things are possible VIP Bronze

    Wow man, staffing with anxiety, how brave of you. I could never do that, thats why i resigned at some point.
    Good luck to you to overcome this, im sure its horrible feeling.
     
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