So yeah. Hey boys, its been a while. A lot of new faces who have no clue who I am and a lot of old faces who would rather forget who I was. I dont know why, but I feel like before eventually disappearing completely, id leave one last real/heartfelt post to the community I once loved so much. To respect the tradition and easy the reading - Have some tunes my dudes: Spoiler: Some instrumental shit so you can read ye? I started playing TTT as a lost, depressed and pretty weird 15 year old. Around the start of 2016 I found SGM and started enjoying the game and the people more and more. Of course, like most people, I joined the forums to appeal a ban in September 2016. Really funny to think its been only 2 years since, considering how much has changed in not only my life, but how much of me has changed. When I joined the community I started building up a persona to try and make myself more likeable. Big mistake, but not surprising for a weird socially awkward 15 yrold. This, naturally, caused a lot of people to have a very bad impression of me. Pair that with my prepubescent voice and you could argue I was "Squeaker of the Year Award" worthy. What a lot of people dont know, is this also caused a lot of unjustified toxicity and personal attacks towards me til about early 2017. Not only from just regular members or players, but even from admins at the time. Stuff that hasnt and will probs never see the light of day, as by now its basically irrelevant. Give it half a year and im starting to settle, kinda embraced the fact that I really dont have to show off anything that isnt myself and just started going with the flow and enjoying the community. I started to make a lot of friends and enjoying the game more and more. I cant express how much hanging out with friends and just random people on TeamSpeak cheered me up and helped me go through a rough time in my life back then. After a year of failed applications after failed applications, I finally got a shot at being a moderator... And I failed horribly. So badly that my trial phase was longer than my actual tenure. Ok, it doesnt make it fair that my trial phase was A MONTH LONG, but hey, shit happens. Looking back, I really didnt enjoy moderating, but after so much time of people challenging me and telling me how i couldnt do it and nobody would pick me up, I kinda had the need to prove it to myself. So yeah, I resigned and ive been lurking and shitposting ever since. Ive lost not only the drive to play games in general, but a lot of friends or people i thought were friends). Ive realized how fake people can be and how valuable actual friends can be. And ive grown a lot. Even after all that shit, I cant deny this community did a lot for me as an insecure teen, and gave me a lot of good times. And thinking about that, heres just a few of the memes and relatable memories ive made in the last two years (lots of random shit and intentional cringe): Spoiler: Memories n shit And the ultimate, timeless memes Spoiler Cant believe how much everything has changed, be it good or bad. Ill always cherish those memories. Love you bois. Im not tagging anyone. You know if youre a homie. And if you know, you know how much I appreciate you. Peace.
You're a pretty awesome dude. I think its super cool how we can be open with each other and if you ever need to talk im always here bro. Much love <3
AND NOW IM DEAD! Gonna miss you dude. Always chill having you around and what not. Just come knocking on my steam if you want someone to bug.
We've always gotten along quite well and were on a similar wavelength, at least when it came to music. You're a chill dude, make sure to say hello from time to time.
