My Heart for your post wasn't meant to mean friendly, but love. You have been a admin and lead admin. I hope you find peace in your life and get back on track. When I first became mod, I really enjoyed all the time we spent with everyone including you in our skype group. Those days were awesome, but this isn't a good bye since you're still here just a different position.
I honestly don't see how you managed to stay sane as a staff member this long. Shit becomes a grind after so many hours. Don't take this the wrong way tho. Eventually every staff member will go through the exact same thing.